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in the silence, the river runs and the river hides out to the ocean and under the sky i promise you the answer will come hold on to patience and watch for the sign everything in its time | |
MiaoYun Foo  BWSS Badminton Council Prom Committee An Exquisite Element of the periodic table, unlikely you'll ever know. :D Most of our life is a series of images. They pass us by like towns on the highway. But sometimes, a moment stuns us as it happens. And we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it will live on forever. - Lucas Scott BWSC BWSS 2e3 CBSS 2e4 Alvin Arthur Ashly(: Bianca Cheryl(: Christel(: Denyce Jake Jelissa Jerena JiaAn Joleen Kelly Cho Marissa Marvin Michelle P Ranjetha Safiah Silas Sonia Tashryn Tiffany<3 Tiffany Ten Tirta Victor WeiShi XinYi YangYang Yanni YiYing YuHeng |
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Saturday, December 19, 2009, 6:16 PM i honestly hadn't had a good day today. i can go screw myself now. fml. ---- i'm sick of putting up this facade any longer. just, why isit so difficult, to be happy? & everytime i try to pick myself up and move on, flashbacks never fail to track me down and give me a tight slap. we can all say, bad things always happen, and is inevitable. there's always special people planted in our life, to see you smile, laugh or even cry, and that someone to just stay on the phone with, even if you that someone to hear you out, don't say anything. theres always that someone special to go through tough times with. but, i can't stand to take refuge in someone. Cause, it doesn't feel right. Maybe i should just state 1 more reason. 'Cause, i've got hurt, countless times by that someone i relied and held on tight. the kind of situation i'm going through now, i guess no one understands. cause, i guess you'll feel as helpless as i am now. sometimes, i just feel so very alone. and that, i'd really want to take down that mask. so many times, have people commented how crazy, retarded, cheery, mad psychotic girl i am. but the truth is, i'm just horribly crippled in one area. Always looking at this devil opposite me, waving his trident. & flashbacks never fail to haunt me down. its these situations that come back to haunt me and i start to think, -what if... But, its just useless having these useless thoughts. so once in a while, i'll throw myself a private pity party, then pack up those emotions and thoughts that aren't helping, and squeeze them in this tiny place inside of me, and carry on as i normally do. I don’t wna sound pathetic, and I don’t wna feel this way. sometimes, it just seems as if i'm alone in my corner, feeling so empty and tired of fighting this losing battle. & it just doesn't feel right that life has to move on when i'm a mess inside. maybe this christmas, God will free me. |