I was looking through my album of old photos a year back just a moment ago, together with a song i use to always played during my trip in Europe. I dont know how, but it just gave me a very euphoric feeling, as if i was back in the past. It dawned uphon me how happy i once was, and how much i'm missing out because of the many traumas i went and am going through. How vulnerable human species are, or at least me.

i still remember foolishly telling one of my friends i trusted so much, how vulnerable and gullible i was, trusting that he wont take it for granted. But it all ended in dismay. Its this foolishness. And i guess at some point of time, we got to realise it ourself, the naiveness we possess ought to perish in order for us to prevent vulnerability exposure. Its always a stage of growing and learning. The many incidents that led me into hiding never stopped me from trusting people again. Until i met an explosion, which set me falling hard. Its scarred me for life, i swear. I never did denied the fact that life's full of the many scary monsters that's wanting to get hold of you. But i guess its how we pick up from these pieces. Memories are mere memories, possessing the ability to haunt you every second every breath you take from this earth. Its like how i described, submerged 50feets under, worst of all, upside down. For 6months, i've gone into hiding. But it made me realise manymanymany things and get a better understanding how this world works. And finally, i'm standing back up on my feet, stronger this time.

To my friends out there who's been struggling to stand back up, give yourself time.

 Dont push your emotions and feeling, stop the thought that everything's not worth weeping for. instead, try to be human or once.

But once you've done so, stand back up stronger than ever.

Most importantly, let no guy define who you are.